Sunday, January 08, 2006

The day I stood in the pouring rain...

These days, sudden downpours and non-stop drizzles ruled my life. I feel drenched and soaked thoroughly� leaving me just cold, wet and numb, and extremely miserable all over.

My oh my, why the sudden overwhelming of emotions here, on a blog that I thot was pretty impersonal?? I don�t know why. Maybe I just feel like letting out some pent up frustrations� just letting go� like the heavy dark clouds letting go of all the rain� and maybe, the skies will clear, and the sun will finally shine once again.

I seriously need something happy to look forward to, although I always though happiness is but a fleeting feeling. It comes once in a while, but usually it won�t last long. That�s why I cherish each happy moment I have, for I know they are hard to come by, and the loathsome misery that is to transverse that �happy feeling� is always quick to follow. Haiz...

�The mountains will not be half as breath-taking as it is, without the valleys to transverse it.� - Anonymous

Currently, each day is like a slow march towards something foreboding and totally not worth looking forward to. I don�t know what this is.. but I guess, maybe it can quite easily be defined as, �the unknown�.

Everyone is afraid of the unknown. No one likes to be lost in something where they have absolutely no control over. It�s like being thrown into the wide expanse of the ocean� to be left adrift and not knowing what you heading into. The irksome feeling of the unknown and the uncertainty of what lies ahead, it just sux. Period. It leaves too much room for imagination. And that is definitely something unpleasant for someone like me, someone driven by imagination according to the Inkblot Test. I think I�m quite a pessimist.

But frankly speaking, time and again, we are the ones who put ourselves in that predicament. We chose, out of the options made available to us, one that we know may result in misery; one that is full of unknowns. And more often or not, we�re indeed left miserable. No surprises here. But why do we still choose that option over other more obvious ones; ones that we know we most probably will not be left feeling as down and out?

I guess, the answer is simply for that one chance, no matter how slim; the chance of the rainbow after the rain, the sunshine after the storm. It is enough for one to brave the storms, and stand steadfast and unwavering in the pouring rain, or in the face of any adversity for that matter. At least that�s what I hope to think it is, that the rain will pass, and the skies will clear� and the days of joy long forgone will be back yet again, to bring a smile upon my face. One that radiates from deep within, and not the pseudo one that I wear daily to hide all troubles away.

I really wish that the day will be here� soon.

Current playlist: Bad Day by Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Cre8tivesparks at 1/08/2006 11:23:00 PM

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2 comments

at 8/1/06 11:32 PM anup.777 said...: You write really well... and I can sort of relate to what u are feeling right now.... but I can't offer anything except a prayer....
at 9/1/06 2:18 AM Cre8tivesparks said...: Thanks for your prayer. =)